Changes changes..

Divorce update: Last week Toby signed our divorce stipulation... it's weird how everything is happening now. it's all coming to an end and the divorce will in final in a few weeks.. I didn't feel good about going back to our life in Georgia with Toby. but I feel really nervous about ending my marriage, probably because i don't know what the future has in store for me and my kids.. Most of the time i feel like this is the right thing to do, but i also have days where i feel so alone and THOSE are the days i second guess myself.. but that feeling doesn't last very long!

Kidsies: My other halfs have been gone away from me to be with their dad's family now for a week and a half! it is really almost killing me. ..but I have a friend here from Georgia, MEGAN, who really helps me a lot by helping me just keep-going. i haven't seen them for A WEEK AND A HALF! a week and a half without your kids, could you imagine?.. that's a freaking long time! we still have two and a half weeks to go, until August 3rd! I try to talk to them on the phone, but they aren't really IN to phone conversations, after all they Are Only 3 and 2(almost). I miss them so much... it's so weird not have that responsibility of their every need right now. 

-i just talked with orry and alivia via Skype... i miss them so much. they are so stinking cute!!! oh my heck!

it really helps that i KNOW that they are being taken care of and spoiled rotten!